Yes it is true, yesterday I finished my fourth 1/2 marathon - third time in the Tucson 1/2 Marathon! I walked as I have not become a runner much to my chagrin. I thought that I would eventually be a runner but as running is hard on your joints etc. perhaps I will continue to just focus on other things until my weight is down....I have to let the running come to me :).
I felt depressed after the event...I had hoped I would have the high of accomplishment and endorphins. Instead I felt sad and defeated. This is the weird feeling I had when I thought I might not make it through the El Tour...it started to come to me in about mile 12 this time...sad and defeated...even as I crossed the finish line I just wanted to cry. I wonder if other people feel this let down...I don't know if it was just that I was physically tired or emotionaly drained. It has been a strange year.
So for now I want to focus on rest and exercising for fun and getting through the holidays. I need to be more positive so am going to take some time of work and try to get back on track.
Three weeks till the new year!
Monday, December 13, 2010
Sunday, November 21, 2010
El Tour de Tucson!
Yesterday I completed the 40 mile portion of the El Tour de Tucson! Previously we had only ridden 30 miles. I must admit that at the 30 mile point yesterday I did not believe I could finish. There was a lot of wind and I was progressing so slowly...getting passed by young children LOL.
I really had to talk to myself to get through those last 10 miles. I would say physically and mentally it was the hardest thing I have ever done. I feel that I learned so much from this event. Now I know what to expect when riding in groups...I know that I need to be more strategic...plan stops so that I have in my mind how far I have gone. I also value the training process and I really am now looking forward to the next event which will be a 50 miler in March.
I have renewed my desire for continued weightloss, but more importantly I want to ensure that I keep doing these things that are good for the body, mind and soul...I want to keep doing fun rides though because I want to have lots of positive connected with my bike riding....it has been such a joy to me.
I was surprised that I didn't feel like I needed a break for, however I think short breaks would help give more power to the rest of the ride. I don't think I took more than 15 min total in my three breaks and it was probably less than that...would be good to wear a watch to have an idea of the time. I will do that as well. A watch, gloves, planned breaks ...and perhaps a camel back...I should be good to go after that! I was so proud to make it up the "big hill" without walking...and what a thrill to cross that finish line?!!! I love hearing them say my name!
El Tour 2011 look out here I come!
I really had to talk to myself to get through those last 10 miles. I would say physically and mentally it was the hardest thing I have ever done. I feel that I learned so much from this event. Now I know what to expect when riding in groups...I know that I need to be more strategic...plan stops so that I have in my mind how far I have gone. I also value the training process and I really am now looking forward to the next event which will be a 50 miler in March.
I have renewed my desire for continued weightloss, but more importantly I want to ensure that I keep doing these things that are good for the body, mind and soul...I want to keep doing fun rides though because I want to have lots of positive connected with my bike riding....it has been such a joy to me.
I was surprised that I didn't feel like I needed a break for, however I think short breaks would help give more power to the rest of the ride. I don't think I took more than 15 min total in my three breaks and it was probably less than that...would be good to wear a watch to have an idea of the time. I will do that as well. A watch, gloves, planned breaks ...and perhaps a camel back...I should be good to go after that! I was so proud to make it up the "big hill" without walking...and what a thrill to cross that finish line?!!! I love hearing them say my name!
El Tour 2011 look out here I come!
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
The Year is Flying By
WOW - August 24th already! I can't believe how the months, days and years just pass by. Since my last entry I completed a second boot camp. This past boot camp was 6 weeks, two days a week. I felt pretty strong this time. Tonya from LWE helped me improve my running. I don't think I will ever love running but I truely want to love running LOL!...
I few months back I committed to trying this year the El Tour de Tucson bike race - I just want to attempt the 35 mile part. I have been riding a bit but thanks to Gina I am going to take the plunge this weekend and get serious about training. Riding my bike was so easy and such a joy when I was a kid...I was quite surprised that it was not so easy to get back into it at 45 :). I purchased my bike 10 years ago which was the last time I thought I would start riding...I think i did about three short rides and then I let the kids take over my bike. This time is bound to be better.
I also intend to do the Tucson Half Marathon again in December. These self challenges really help me to keep my workouts going and motivated.
My weight loss this year has been less than stellar in fact gaining seemed to be the theme even with all the exercise I've been getting. I got all the way back up to 282 but am now down again to 275...at least that is what I was at two days ago. I don't want to be afraid of my weight and I want to remember that when I started I weighed 329. I know these are uncomfortable numbers but I find just saying them out loud takes away some of their power. If the folks on Biggest Loser can get up there every week in skimpy clothes and let the entire world see their weight I can put mine up no my blog...at least then it is out there - not a secret or shame, just a fact.
So now I am trying to find the balance. Even though gaining back some of the weight has made me a bit discouraged...i was told by two different people this week that I haven't seen in a while that they couldn't believe how young I look. So that makes me feel like all the positive things I am doing are making a difference in my health, in my looks and in my life even if my weight is not changing. I want to eat good food, exercise and enjoy all that life has to offer ... a little wine, good friends, awesome children and a great career - no need for feeling down!
I few months back I committed to trying this year the El Tour de Tucson bike race - I just want to attempt the 35 mile part. I have been riding a bit but thanks to Gina I am going to take the plunge this weekend and get serious about training. Riding my bike was so easy and such a joy when I was a kid...I was quite surprised that it was not so easy to get back into it at 45 :). I purchased my bike 10 years ago which was the last time I thought I would start riding...I think i did about three short rides and then I let the kids take over my bike. This time is bound to be better.
I also intend to do the Tucson Half Marathon again in December. These self challenges really help me to keep my workouts going and motivated.
My weight loss this year has been less than stellar in fact gaining seemed to be the theme even with all the exercise I've been getting. I got all the way back up to 282 but am now down again to 275...at least that is what I was at two days ago. I don't want to be afraid of my weight and I want to remember that when I started I weighed 329. I know these are uncomfortable numbers but I find just saying them out loud takes away some of their power. If the folks on Biggest Loser can get up there every week in skimpy clothes and let the entire world see their weight I can put mine up no my blog...at least then it is out there - not a secret or shame, just a fact.
So now I am trying to find the balance. Even though gaining back some of the weight has made me a bit discouraged...i was told by two different people this week that I haven't seen in a while that they couldn't believe how young I look. So that makes me feel like all the positive things I am doing are making a difference in my health, in my looks and in my life even if my weight is not changing. I want to eat good food, exercise and enjoy all that life has to offer ... a little wine, good friends, awesome children and a great career - no need for feeling down!
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Difficult year
I'm not sure why my focus is so off this year. I started a new challenge last week with Boot Camp at Ladies Workout Express - it is three days a week Mon, Wed and Sat. for an hour each day. I wasn't going to signup because I wasn't sure if I was up to it but it has been really good. I'm so glad that Denise from LWE asked if I was signing up. "I said are you sure I can do it? " She said if anybody can do it is you. that made me feel really good that she has so much confidence in my willingness and strength.
I am hoping that this will be the shock my system needs to get the weightloss going again. I am not sure why the weight is such a struggle now...it seemed to melt away last year. It is almost as if the closer I get to my goal the more I struggle against it. I love the exercise though. Boot Camp is hard but it feels so good to just do it, even on the things like burpees and mountain climbers that I am really not good at...I just keep trying. I know in my heart if I am moving and getting the heart rate up that it is good. My focus needs to be positive and encouraging for myself. So...deep breaths, positive energy and love to this body which is doing it's best to keep me healthy and happy.
I am hoping that this will be the shock my system needs to get the weightloss going again. I am not sure why the weight is such a struggle now...it seemed to melt away last year. It is almost as if the closer I get to my goal the more I struggle against it. I love the exercise though. Boot Camp is hard but it feels so good to just do it, even on the things like burpees and mountain climbers that I am really not good at...I just keep trying. I know in my heart if I am moving and getting the heart rate up that it is good. My focus needs to be positive and encouraging for myself. So...deep breaths, positive energy and love to this body which is doing it's best to keep me healthy and happy.
Saturday, January 2, 2010
2010!
I can't believe the new year is already two days gone! This past year was such a blur. Physical challenges I want to work on this year...straight away 31 days of exercise. So far so good, Morning walk on New Year's Day and night time walk tonight.
Mid term - another longer walk/run...perhaps the Valley of the Gold again in March?...it is on the calendar.
Longer term - El Tour; hike the grand canyon??? Really I just realized that one!
Today was hard. I have been feeling a little blue...the new year has so much potential - I have to say that walking in the park tonight was beautiful and yet very much a time of not only solitude but seclusion... really not good at being alone - perhaps I have to get better at that before I can be good with someone?
Many lessons to be learned this year.
Mid term - another longer walk/run...perhaps the Valley of the Gold again in March?...it is on the calendar.
Longer term - El Tour; hike the grand canyon??? Really I just realized that one!
Today was hard. I have been feeling a little blue...the new year has so much potential - I have to say that walking in the park tonight was beautiful and yet very much a time of not only solitude but seclusion... really not good at being alone - perhaps I have to get better at that before I can be good with someone?
Many lessons to be learned this year.
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