Yes it is true, yesterday I finished my fourth 1/2 marathon - third time in the Tucson 1/2 Marathon! I walked as I have not become a runner much to my chagrin. I thought that I would eventually be a runner but as running is hard on your joints etc. perhaps I will continue to just focus on other things until my weight is down....I have to let the running come to me :).
I felt depressed after the event...I had hoped I would have the high of accomplishment and endorphins. Instead I felt sad and defeated. This is the weird feeling I had when I thought I might not make it through the El Tour...it started to come to me in about mile 12 this time...sad and defeated...even as I crossed the finish line I just wanted to cry. I wonder if other people feel this let down...I don't know if it was just that I was physically tired or emotionaly drained. It has been a strange year.
So for now I want to focus on rest and exercising for fun and getting through the holidays. I need to be more positive so am going to take some time of work and try to get back on track.
Three weeks till the new year!
