Here we are June 17th, 2013 and I am beginning again. I was recently down to 242 but trampolined back up to 252 this morning. I know some of that is water weight and the time of month etc., but the bottom line is whenever I start getting to a happy number something moves me back up. I REALLY want to get below 200 and possible to 180-170 by my fiftieth birthday which means I have about two years and eight days to do just that. It has taken me five years to get to where I am from 329 and many numbers in between SO - yeah.
I have recently realized just how deep-seated my comfort eating is. I have been turning to ice-cream my drug of choice all too frequently. The other day I ate (not ice cream) until my stomach literally hurt...I have not done that in a very long time. I know I was looking to be filled, looking for something...more.
So there it is. I just read this book called, One Word that will Change Your Life. It is a tiny little book and no it doesn't give you the word :( . The premise is that if you focus on one word for a year, in all aspects of your life (spiritual, physical, mental, relational, financial, emotional) it will bring to unexpected and helpful outcomes. You are supposed to pray/meditate/think about what you need in your life, what is in the way and what you need to get rid of. Then you ask for the word to be given to you and then the enlightenment begins. Apparently some people do this at the beginning of a new year, but since my birthday is nine days away, I have decided to figure out my word and use it until my next birthday. Now that being said, it is not supposed to be like a resolution that you either do, or don't do...whatever you do with it is what you get out of it - for the YEAR.
I thought a lot about this so far. My first word was LOVE because, well, that has always been my word. That or a combination of Live, Laugh, Love, then I thought okay, what about MOVE, that works with exercise, dieting...but when I thought about career and home...well I proved I wasn't ready to move in that area recently so I have moved on to COURAGE...not courageous enough to have that be my first word ever. Then I started writing down words and phrases and put them in a Wordle and came up with MORE. More joy, more peace, more love, more power, create more etc....so I think that the word is MORE, unless something comes to me before the 26th, MORE it is.
So here is to new beginnings, and to finding the more instead of the is that all there is.
