Today has been one of those days where I feel like even though there are clouds outside, it is really raining inside. I can't quite put my finger on the issue today. I did the Gabe Zimmerman Saguaro Labor Day 5K yesterday. I should be feeling great and instead, I am feeling let down, depressed...deflated.
The fact that four of my most recent lost lbs. found me again couldn't possibly be the thing. It is just that I have had great success in the past three weeks and was down 18 lbs! Then this morning...what the heck?! I know there are so many factors in this rollercoaster of weight loss, but COME ON!
Okay, four lbs. and this stupid guy who I don't really even like but who seemed to want to go out again, made a date and then blew me off. Seriously, I am fifty years old! I can't even believe he had the nerve. Why make a date at all? Why even bother?
I am tired of just letting these things happen. In my heart I have told him every way to Sunday, but in my brain I am saying, why are you letting your pride make a big deal out of this? He is not your dream man, not even close, and there is no love lost. Just pride. Let it go...give it up buttercup! Tomorrow you just start again and stop thinking about yourself, there are others out there who need your help on many different levels.
Okay, twenty-four hours of pitty party is enough.
Tomorrow we begin again.
